So with the good comes the bad. My computer’s graphic card died on me the other day. I knew it was coming and just asked that it wait until I could afford to replace it. This means fewer posts for a bit and no photos.
Then the car started making a funny noise and into the shop it went. It is going to cost us a good chunk of cash to fix, but it is necessary otherwise it could do some bad things. This of course means it will be a longer wait on fixing the computer.
But the same day I got my official job offer. Temping has been interesting and actually paid better than my last job, but still stressful to never know if I’d have a job the next week. But they loved me and wanted to keep me. So yay!
My dreams have been super vivid for the past few weeks. And sometimes really bizarre. Samhain night left me with some dreams to ponder. All sorts of messages are coming through.
I dressed up as a witch on Halloween. Not a traditional witch, I suppose I was a little bit steam punk, but I was all in black and white. Balance. My hope is to continue my magickal growth over the next year. To find my balance of my spirituality and mundane. To continue with my path and find happiness and joy. To understand that there will be darkness and light.
I know that I can always make it through the darkness. I can crawl through the muck and make my way back up to the light. I know that there are lessons there. I told my husband the other day that I had to break myself to heal and transform at one point in my life. And that I emerged from it stronger and secure in who I was.
We always talk about the fluffy-light. Everyone is always down on them for not acknowledging the darkness. We can flip the coin and look at all the “I’m so dark I fart spiders” crowd. They do the same thing, ignore anything bright and sparkling, look down their noses and decide it’s not “serious and dark enough”.
Balance is needed. Dark and light, both exist. Both are a part of life. There is nothing wrong with blowing bubbles one day and then doing some serious and deep the next. I never understand the need to ignore one side of the coin.
As we head into the dark part of the year I hope we can all find our balance. I hope we can all hold on for the ride that our path is going to take us on. I will continue to love My little Ponies, glitter and all things pink. I will also continue to learn the mysteries, do ritual, be spiritually fulfilled and be true to myself.
So I take the good with the bad and realize that it will balance out. Things may fall apart but I can at least afford to fix them. Darker days are coming, but that means time to enjoy other hobbies and things indoors. The cold is coming but that means many of the things that annoy my sinuses will be gone.
See the blessings where you can and enjoy the lessons that the next turning of the wheel brings!